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Poem of the Week Children’s Special: Leaving by Rhiannon Oliver

Poem of the Week Children’s Special: Leaving by Rhiannon Oliver

Steve Whitaker

Literary editor

@stevewh16944270

12:00 p.m. October 19, 2024

Arts

Go away

We have to leave the smell in the hallway.
We can’t pack up the bumpy wallpaper
Or the way the back door squeaks
If you rely on it.
We can’t take the neighbors with us,
Or their cakes,
Or the proximity of the church bells
This is their wedding song
On sunny Saturdays.

We have to leave that to the sunshine
Come to me on my pillow before school.
We can’t bring the corner garden wind
And how it sneaks past the grill (we have to go)
And into the kitchen (we have to go)
To tell us our sausages are ready.

Darling, we have to go!
Mom’s voice echoes from the ceiling
for the last time.

We have to go.
I leave my breath in the walls
And sigh farewell to the house
That will stay in my bones.

Photo credit: Chris Riddell

Photo credit: Chris Riddell

Rhiannon Oliver’s quite beautiful and deeply honest poem is more than a simple elegy for the feeling of emptiness that often accompanies saying goodbye. “Leaving” is aimed at children who lack the anchor of a sense of proportion and who have a feeling of loss proportional enlarged. The word “flit” in the context of leaving a beloved home seriously betrays the emotional impact of such a fundamental disruption.

Oliver’s litany of the “abandoned” – the incidental furniture of our lives, whose presence is mostly mundane but endowed with heightened personal significance – is rendered with heartbreaking clarity. Every appeal to the senses, every reminder of what the newly uprooted child and their parent will miss, is described in detail as if they were in retreat, reinforced by the knowledge that they will be left behind forever.

Even in sensory abstraction – the light falling on a pillow at a certain angle; the “corner garden wind”; the “wedding song” of the church bells – a special kind of presence is inextricably linked to the place and is therefore irreplaceable.

Even in abstraction, the echoing, disembodied voice of warning freezes in the mother figure’s final farewell speech – “Darling, we have to go!‘, and a reminder that the act of leaving is a binary process: that the love we receive is reciprocated and preserved in the fabric of memory:

“I leave my breath in the walls.”
And sigh farewell to the house
This will stay in my bones.’

“Leaving” appears in Sky Surfing: Excellent adventures in a poetry balloon will be published by Yorkshire Times Publishing later this year. The poem is reproduced here with the kind permission of the author.

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